something is wrong with me. someone call the psychiatrist. really. seriously. somebody please. it's happening again. i'm rambling, and i feel high! on nothing!

i ate no sweet. i smoke no weed.

it rhymes sorta. something's so wrong with me. =\ i'm high and happy. at this time of the night. gahhhhhh!!!! xD

okay and today, i got yelled at for nothing. i spent fifty bucks for something i thought was nice and then didn't need it anymore. get it? i wasted 50 freaking bucks. i can buy like 20 plates of chicken rice with that, and like 500 10cents sweets. FIVE HUNDRED. its a whoooole lot! though i don't think i need them to get high. i'm high. throw me in a party! let me be the life! =DDDD

in the middle of the night, you're high. what do you do? you dance in your room like a mad woman, then go out, and rape your dog?! naaahh... you disturb him and make him dance with you. and you waltz around the whole living room with your dog in circles may i add =DDD highness xD "axe dee" all the way!

and then you blog about it. (:

the end.
to be continued.
bye.
-fin-

i think its PMS. but erm, the mood swings seem extreme enough for me to qualify as a bipolar patient =\ basically, i'm a nutcase in a nutshell. right now, this moment. how odd.

can't believe the year is ending already. has everyone else done their christmas shopping yet? cause i haven't, and i'm in some sort of panic. awkward, panic.

a lot of unconsolidated, random thoughts are in my head now. so i totally cannot sleep. i have no idea why i'm so random. am i this random all the time? probably. but well.

i have this sudden urge to go into a state of complete explosive verbal diarrhoea. but there's no one to talk to at this time. argh. i'll go talk to the wall. k bye.

shopping sprees are bad for health, and my pocket.
feeling the BURN. =\

after we signed up for the camp, everyone were like telling us that we were paying money to torture ourselves. i almost believed them, if not for my eagerness to go for the camp.

on the first day of the camp, we were asked to think about what we would like to achieve from the entire camp. the question kind of stumped me for a while. i never really thought of that till then, because all along, i simply wanted to experienced the camp that people raved about. plus the whole load of high elements and kayaking. i said some stuffs about missing ubin, wanting to do the elements and tanning (limited to 3), but as i was thinking, i realised i just wanted to find a part of myself that i have left behind/lost some time ago. the part of me that was mentally and physically stronger. i know this sounds like some cliche shit, but too bad for those who think i'm totally cooking up a story.

all i want to say is, through all the endurance testing tasks, i think i found the "less whiney" part of me back(: i hope it stays this way. i don't think i will ever forget sleeping under the stars every single night, with a bunch of whacko dudes and one of my best friend birch(:

spoilt shoes, muddy portages, kelong karaoke (in techno) that kept us up all night just before we set out for our longest kayaking navigation course yet. soggy underwear(s) were pretty memorable as well. plus our rock heavy bagpacks, peeing and changing in the bushes, not bathing, swimming in the quarry (OMG THE LUXURY!). so awesome. somebody stop me. hahaha =D i kinda remembered how we refused to get out of the quarry despite "risking" an attack from the quarry people and our fear of the unknown. which brings me to this: what were you guys thinking, trying to dive while wearing a life vest?!?!?!!! eh DUUUUUUDES!!! as much as i hate the term, i think its appropriate to say, "shag cannot think!" LOL!

there're so much that we did together, but when i think of the camp, i think of the people who were with me along the way (recall: Lin was talking to me/entertaining me with the story of how she had 20 hamsters and 5 jack russells through the super irritating never ending land ex.) i think no person in the world, no matter how independent, can go through life without friends because they provide the company and encouragement (and sometimes distractions haha) we all need.

i learnt this when i had to let go of the hand holding me (and vice versa i guess, right birch??) to do a solo walk in the dark. i don't think i've ever felt so vulnerable and disoriented (despite the straight road) before. maybe i should really stop watching all those nonsense horror films where hands grab you from the bushes or like some monster kills you in the forest, because it just doesn't help-.- imagine all the time i was trying to avoid the muddy puddles on the left (and i can't see where they were) but i'm also trying to stay centralized instead of walking on the right side because i was scared that some thing was going to grab me if i walked within its reach. feel so dumb. -.-

anyways, the whole obs thing was a worthwhile experience. i would totally forgo the comfort of my bed and the toilet to do it all over again, with the same bunch of people =D

Would any one want to adopt little brownie?

(i know it's not a very creative name, it wasn't given by me anyways.. LOL!) all his brothers and sisters went missing one by one and we don't know what happened to them )':

a lot of "industrial puppies" die because of well, industrial accidents (http://noahsarkcares.blogspot.com/2008/09/noahs-ark-rescue-ziggy.html) .

sadly): some become roadkills of large trucks, others get crushed by metal pipes and stuff while playing. (for example please read : http://noahsarkcares.blogspot.com/2008/10/buddys-misfortune.html )

another ugly truth, many people abuse them because they don't want them around their work area. (http://noahsarkcares.blogspot.com/2009/05/bonnie-clyde.html )

they also get into fights with one another and stuffs so they get injured pretty often. ( http://noahsarkcares.blogspot.com/2008/05/na-rescue-lady-mongrel.html ) very very depressing thought. maggot wounds and all =\



brownie's siblings have been going missing one by one and my mum didn't want him (he's the last one left) to go missing too. so, if any one can take care of this puppy either temporarily (till we find him a home) or wants to adopt him permanently please please please contact me asap OK!

i would have kept him if Owens wasn't going to chew his head off ):

more pics of brownie when he was younger(:

i'm sticking to mocktails from now on )':

Happy TWO to YOU too!(:

thanks for everythiiiiinnggg.
This post is dedicated to you leh.
touched not? LOL!
though i know now you're sleeping soundly on your virgo or sneaking into the casino and enjoying yourself (and you can't read this -.-)
OWN one soon okay(:

yatchyatchyatch dream.
hahaha :D

love you!

but at the very least, i can still hang on to the honesty in that statement. a statement i wish weren't true, and rather blunt, and hurtful. but all the way honest nonetheless.

Jocelyn asked me today if i'd choose an honest person over a rich guy.
i said, "honest."

i know its a stupid "dreamer" answer.

BUT

i hate it when Mastercard is right.

because there are some things money can't buy

and the things that come with honesty, priceless.

well, there's so much to dooo..

1) chilli crabbing (asap!!)
2) buy obs stuffs
3) sleepover with jing and tay (a must)
4) plan for 2nd anniversary :)))
5) back to tuitoring
6) new tuition assignment!
7) visit the clinic
8) OBS!!
9) piano lessons resuming
10) shoppingggggg!
11) pack wardrobe
12) pack notes! (in time for next sem's to come in)
13) christmas? (:
14) more shopping
15) more food(:
16) more food
17) more shopping
18) more meet ups.
19) more food
20) you get the idea... LOL!

OH! and before i forget. that 'DONG' mini project we want to do. hmm, but for now, 2 more papers to go ): please be over sooooooooooooon.......

Meeting up with old friends is like the best feeling you'll ever get. Sure we're all reminiscing about the past, and we feel so old beside all the secondary school kids, but the short meet up felt so good. it almost seem like we're back in school again. the good old days(: don't see how i can't love those torturous NP days=D made a bunch of crazy ass friends(:

LOVESSSS!

I totally DO NOT miss this feeling. So why is it coming back!

GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

and don't come back bloody hell!
its ruining EVERYTHING.

is quite funny how things are sometimes, we joke about it but we never thought it would happen to us. so we are never prepared. the most irritating thing about such stuff is that when i prepare for it, it never happens e.g. when i'm prepared to chew the head off some people, they never appear, period. >:(


it's given me a better perspective of things though. but still, i blame you for not educating me properly jocelyn. hahahaha=D (i'm flouting the maxim of quality here)

my favourite movie hosting site has been changing its domain (legal issues i suppose...)

since last yeah or so... this is the third site.. i wonder how many variation can they come up with.. LOL! for those whom i have told about this site: www.watch-movies-links.net it has been changed to:

http://www.watch-movies-online.tv

everytime it's gone, i panic. because i need my dose of comedies =D hahahaha... cheapskate whatever. i don't careeeeee.